Deciding NOT

I wanted to have bees and ordered a hive, a used suit, and bees to be delivered in April. Then my back and my knee hurt for a couple of days and I read an article that said beekeepers have bad backs. So I decided that wanting to do something may not always depend on whether I have the money to do it. I could just decide I shouldn't do it. That is pretty difficult. But today I called and cancelled the orders. Everybody was really nice. The guy I ordered the hive from said he had broken his ankle and wrist since I last saw him! He also said he'd had both knees replaced in the past. Anyway, I should have decided on this earlier.